7 months

My most favorite thing ever was rocking you to sleep every night. You used to want me, need me, to do this every night. From 2.5-6 months every night we would go into your room, I'd take a seat on the rocker and you would melt into me as you fell asleep. You'd rub my face and grunt as you drank your bottle. Your bed time routine was bath at 715, lotion massage at 740, PJs and rocked to sleep at 8. Some nights I remember rocking you, staring at the wall and being so sad. I'd study your face so that I never forgot these moments. Everyone always tells you that you'll never know the last time you rock your baby to sleep so to never take it for granted. Lord they weren't lying. There's a poem and it says there's a last time for everything and you may never know that you are experiencing ad well. I kissed you over and over again while you slept in my arms every night. I prayed over you and breathed you in. Now you're a big 7 month old. You go to bed and hold your own bottle as you drift off into dream land. Its so bittersweet. I miss our intimate and bonding moments so much but I couldn't be more proud of you Vivienne. I hope one day you understand and feel the love I have for you. There is nothing in the world I wouldn't do for you. I am so proud to be your mommy ❤