Perfect day

Today I woke up to you at 1230pm!!!! You slept all night and then some! When I went to get you this morning I had a headache so I put you in my bed with me. You were so happy. You don't like to snuggle and hug or be held. You are so independent! I hope you're that way in your teens lol you watched Telletubbies and smiled at them and ate some breakfast in bed. You leaned over and went mmmmmmmm and put your mouth out for a kiss with a mouth full. You giggled after and it was so funny! You were ready for a nap but wouldn't go down so I held you and rocked you and you slept on my chest! Not only slept, cuddled your arms under your chest and buried your head under my chin. Every time you were snoring I got up off the rocker to try to put you in bed and you cried so hard! It's been so long since you wanted to be cuddled. It feels like years since the last time you fought a nap! I slept with you in the rocker just rubbing your beautiful hair until I fell asleep too. You are becoming a sweet toddler who wants to be held, shares with me, lays and watches toons snuggled to me. You were like this as a newborn and young baby of course, but for a while you weren't so cuddly and I thought you would never want me to hold you.
These posts have been so slim and its because I got a new phone and this blog is on the old phone. I want you to know I didn't forget to keep track of how amazing our journey is.
You're my whole world Vivienne Allyn. Today was just what I needed as a mom to know you love me. Its so hard not knowing when you can't tell me and mean it. You're my everything. I love you so much 💓

My beauty

End of Jan 2016

Oh my how time has just flown by. Your first birthday is in a little under 3 weeks and I find myself wondering how we made it this far and how this happened so quickly. You are more gorgeous than I ever dreamed and you love me so deeply with the same love I have for you. Its crazy because when you are little you have this timeline that you expect to follow... Go to college, establish a career, get married, have children.. For us it didn't happen in that order but you came into my life right when I needed you. I remember holding you and  rocking you to sleep while crying ... I didn't want you to grow up. Now, I see your ambition, determination, and strong personality.. You want to do everything on your own.. And while it makes me so happy, I feel like the time has gone by so quickly. You say hey there, yes, what's that, yeah, mama and you don't want my help. Its hard to accept my little girl doesn't need me but I am so very proud of you Vivienne. You make me smile, you give me a reason, you challenge me, you are my everything and I love you with all of my heart. 💓 love your mommy

2016

Its 2016! Your first new year and your last first holiday! We have had the best year ever. I became your mommy, and nothing in the world will ever top that! You say mama, Dada, baba, tata and yea!!!! You can stand on your own but aren't walking yet. You clap, love the itsy bitsy spider song and Bubble Guppies. You have 7 very sharp teeth and a head full of hair! Our first Thanksgiving and Christmas were so amazing too. On Christmas morning you ripped into one or two presents then were ready for a nap hahaha. I didn't give you one because you were supposed to sleep on the way to mama and Kneecee and Troys where you were spoiled rotten! You still tore into presents but just had a mean mug on your face all day. You eat everything I eat and you love music. Every morning you wake up with the biggest grin ever and I melt. There's nothing sweeter than your beautiful face. Last night I worked and came home just in time to wake you up at 11:55. You slept on my chest on the couch until I woke you during the countdown, we kissed, you laughed and smiled and then went right back to bed. If I ever have any doubt there is a God you always remind me of him and his great love for us both. You came in my life when I needed you so much and you keep me going every single day. You are so happy (unless you need a nap) and you make everyone around you so happy too! It is crazy to think at this time last year you were in my belly but I didn't know you yet. I love you Vivienne Allyn. Here's to 2016 and all of our amazing adventures to come 💓